Been sitting in Brew for the last 2.5 hours. they have coffee drinks from 3-6 bucks and beer bottles from 1.50 to 8 bucks. had i known, i would have just stick to my beers instead of paying 5 bucks for a chai latte. got about 5 apps out today. the whole idea of being outside my house on my day off is pleasing. i dislike having to be cooped in a place. i hate routines. i hate having a schedule. well i really just hate working and having to be somewhere. well i also hate bills and the holes ive dugg myself in. im so ready to party cause im in my prime. just like anyone else, you need to make a living. when i decided on this field, i was so sure that id be top of the class and first ones pick for jobs. performance wise im kind of behind.
its so hard to tell bitches what to do. you have to be considerate of their feelings. but why shuold i when they are soooooo rude to me? i guess thats why im not on their level. i have to set an example. this job is a lot harder than i thought. but so easy at the same time. i work in retail for god sakes. i'm dealing with boxes and real people and their problems. i never signed up for this. but i forgot that everything ties in together and to be in field, i have to deal with their bull shit. im working hands on with the customers.
so i would love to find another job doing what i'll enjoy. and i guess thats why i spent 2.5 hours in brew today.
i dont want to be a quitter but sometimes they get the best of me. i shouldnt let them win.. im sorry for being a bitch.
